Wasted

So there goes my 1st day of my long awaited holiday.. Wasted..
Deng.. Wasted whole day stoning at home only.. boooorrriiing..
Really wanted to go out, but apparently lots of ppl's busy with stuff.. lol XD
Its really so hard to ask ppl out at this time..
Holiday at the wrong time.. Stupid MUFY!
My phone whole day didn't bugde at all.. Sad case leh weih.. lol

Aiks.. Wanna watch Click but its not screening anymore =(
Anyone got DvD ? >.<
Sienz.. There goes my holiday =(

Scars - Paparoach
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Broken - Seether
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Totally dig these 2 songs! Especially the chorus..

Woohoo

Yes.. Just 2 more days..

Then... Merdeka!! Holiday!! Woohoo!

Been waiting for months for this 2 freaking days of holiday..

Everyday i feel like exploding but i can't cause i surpress myself..

Gonna make use of this 2 days to "explode" gao gao.. lol

48 hours of rest ain't enough honestly..

Not enough time to recharge and refresh..

Haven't really go for any vacation..

Missed so many movies.. So outdated liao.. I didn't even watch Superman..

There's still so many inner conflicts happening..

Trials is in a month time..

I'm still not in nerd-mode..

I'm so doomed..

By the way, anyone interested going to the merdeka celebration at Sunway Surf Beach this wednesday?
*N3mbers, Dr. House and Nip/Tuck are so cool! made me glued to the tv for 3 hours nia..

And the bad luck continues..

So it happens that im on a bad luck streak..

As usual, every Sunday i drive to n fro to church..

I saw a couple of ppl's car broke down. And i laughed at them.
HUGE mistake man..

So as i was driving home just now, what would should have been a 15mins of comfortable drive became a 2 hour plus of hell.. lol..

I decided to try the longer road- tru the highway.. again, HUGE mistake..
As i was driving, i smell somethings weird in the air-con and theres a freaky sound..

I look at the meter.. its almost overheat.. lol.. I'm laughing at ppl this morning and now its my turn.. Karma man.. Karma.. lol XD

Immediately i stop the car.. Waliao... When we open the hutch, saw stim coming out..tssstttt like that >.<.. Sienzz lo.. the car is so overheat that after we pour all the water we had its still szilling hot =.=''.. So what.. call for help lo.. Deng.. My friend who suppose to come and help us, their car overheat oso and we ran out of water.. =.='' He twist the cap n the whole thing just pop! Boiling water shot out from his car like a fountain and land right onto us.. lol.. We're dancing like a maniac who is standing on hot live coal.. ><

sienzzz... We end up stranded in the middle of the highway under the scorching sun.. Inside the car is like a conventional oven i tell u. Hot until can die.. Outside so sunny hot until can dry....

Hong was kind enough to stop by when he's on his way to makan.. Got some water but it still wont do any good.. lol..

Luckily its quite near my home n my bro is at home :D.. He came with lots of water, full enough to fill 2 tanks of car.. Just arrive home safe and sound.. gotta get that thing fixed asap.. if not it'll be my mum's turn tmr o.o''

So thats it. Hope this bad luck streak does not continue.. It screwed up my sunday nicely :(
I wonder why ppl visit n nvr tag anymore o.o''

Parents all went out..

Sis went pak toh..

Bro went partying..

All that's left is me....

Alone.....


Purrrrfect ;-)

Now i can watch all the matchs liao..
I can scream "GOOOAAALLL!!!" everytime Liverpool score liao =)

But its kinda bored tho.. XD
Anyone interested go yum cha after those football matches?

-.o''

Man.. Today ain't a lucky day for me.

Went for futsal today. It started well, but you just cant tell when accident strike. As usual, i'm the keeper (I'm always the starting keeper.. lol). So as I'm diving for a incoming ball, zhen yuan slipped and his knee hit my face.. It happen so fast that both of us cant avoid the collision. So BAM! My head went dizzy n all i heard ppl's muttering something.. lol. Kinda scary actually.. I feel theres a rush of blood running through my head.. I can feel one side of my eye sweeling and there's taste of blood in my mouth..

Went to the doctor for some check up.. Just in case..
My mum was kinda freak out when she say me.. She worried that i'll get paralyze cause her friend's son became a half-cabbage after sustaining a head injury during a sport game =.=''..

So it turn out ok.. No blood in the eye ball.. tho my vission is affected abit..blurr.. a bit only la..
But its still abit reddish lo..
Thank god! I still wanna look at ll's de.. Mana boleh if my eye injured.. XD

Here's how i look like now..



Can't see clearly?

My left eye..

My panda eye..

Got rammed by someone's knee in the face ain't no joke i tell you. I black out for a sec and can still feel my head spinning after an hour of rest on the bench.

Now i looked like a pervert who got punched in the eye for peeping some chick in the dressing room =/
I need a sunglasses >.<''

Its back!

If you stare at the sky, look far to the horizon.. What will you see?

Its nothing but... HAZE!!!
Yea.. Its back again.. I got no idea why, but its back again!
Damn those fucking Indonesian people.. Fuck them..
When the air gets hazy, i'll get annoyed easily; when i'm annoyed, i'll become hot temper.
Damn.. Those smoke is irritating la.. Every year similliar things happen over and over again.
When will they stop.. Deng them man.. Really..

Plus, its so frustrating when I'm here squenching my brain to prepare for test whilst SAM ppl are relaxing n enjoying their holiday.. No offence tho.
Got so fucking annoyed by the test n my results are deteriorating..
I just screwed up my com science test nicely today.. how can u expect me to write a program in 10 mins?? im so cha leh weih.. =.=''
I need a break nia..
The only holiday i got till the final is Merdeka Day :(
Sienzz..

Plus.. tmr got FUCKING ENGLISH TEST!! I fucking hate the good for nothing useless theme study shit.. Coz i got no idea htf n wtf we need to do it.. Screw it la..
ps: sry for those vulgar words.. too stressed out n something's troubling my mind..

Tagged

Got tagged by yean.. so here goes.. *already heard ppl snoozing liao XD*

Awesome people i wanna meet
My grandparents.. They were gone when i was born..
Gerrard and the whole Liverpool team!
God?

Things i can't live without
My computer
Internet
Computer games
Music
Friends
God?

I wish i could..
be more serious bout my studies instead of slacking around =\..
stop being a computer/internet-addict..
be courageous at the right moment.
be more mature
have better communicate and social skills
make all the mosquito burn in hell.. I kill an average of 5 mosquito/day..grr
turn back time and undo my mistakes.. Things getting really akward now..

I want..
First and foremost, i want my bloody palms to stop dripping SWEAT!!!
acknowledgement, acceptance, respect.
but definitely not rejection and ignorance.
that magical remote control from Click! wahaha ;)..
a backpack holiday to Europe.
a full scholarship? hehe..
a new hairdo, my hair sux! Its more like a bunch of grass than hair =(
nothing more but a place in that special person heart..
Songs that I think are awesome
A Millions years, Night Air, Air Dry, For you I Will - Teddy Geiger
Goodbye My Lover, High - James Blunt (His voice is gay.. but i like the lyrics XD)
Chasing Cars, You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol
Please Forgive Me - Brian Adams
Afterglow - INXS
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Wishing for a falling stars - LFO
Lips of An Angel - Hinder
Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Biskitz
Most of David Tao's (Tao Zhe) songs
All of Lee Hom songs!

The list is long la.. lazy to list them out.. lol

How i see myself in 10 years
Still single?
Got my 1st degree, maybe doing my masters?
Got a 40k/year job?
Got my 1st hot ride and drive that special person around?
Lol.. How the heck i know.. Mayb i'll end up in the Tanjung Rambutan leh >.<

Random Facts
err.. Actually i dunno much bout facts..
Hmm.. dunno.. I'll skip this one XD..

As for who i would like to tag.. err... those ppl i linked mayb? thats if they read this tho, which i doubt it XD
It feels so strange, I guess that's change..

I hate writing..
I hate essays..
I hate theme study shit..
I hate English!!

I got two words for it..
Fcuk it!

I used to like English class..
But now.. I dread to go for it..
English is the toughest subject to score..
Considering that i have a sucky vocab n grammar..
Yea.. I suck at English..

Happy happy

Wow! I'm so surprise n delighted.
Never in my whole school life..
I scored a 40/40 for my Physics CT..
100% ! =)
First time leh... Not even in my dreams.. lol..
I still remember failing Bro.John super hard physics exam miserably..
I still remember the fear of facing physic exam in high school.. XD
My physics sucks one la.. Lady Luck is with me tat day =)

Mufy CT is relatively easier compare to other courses..
I know 100% for physic CT is common for MUFY la..
Its my 1st time ma.. let me syok sendiri can? lol

Next target: 100% for spec maths O.O''

Woot?!

Today those Monash peeps came and gave us a brief talk bout the course offered in Monash U. We got a couple of booklet and the latest Monash Undegraduate Course Guide =)..

Initially, i was looking forward of doing Mechanical/Design in Aussie. Yea, its expensive XD.. i know but theres always scholarship mar.. But then... when i take a closer look at the brochure, to my horror... It requires a suitable background in aspect of ART and design.. O.O''

ART?? O.o'' U ppl know la.. My artistic sense is very very limited de.. lol.. If u want me to draw a blueprint of a machine or something, that is still within my reach.. but an ART FOLIO!?? I cant never draw as good as YeeShuang or be as good as Yeanz in photoshop.. Hell no =.=''.. The only thing i know to draw is a rose =\.. sienz lo.. There goes my dream >.<''.. Haiz.. I guess the only option left is mechanical.. lolx.

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Well.. Usually, guy dont cry in front of others... But today a friend of my did.
Guys only cry when they're REALLY sad.. Ppl's pity will only make them feel worse. All we need is some space alone n time to lick our wounds...

He had a heartbreak.. We cant do anything but stay beside him. Words wont make him feel better. Its sad to see them like this.. Weeks ago they were still the sweetest couple.. haiz..

Not that i nvr cried b4, in fact, i cry alot.. especially when watching movie, even cartoons XD. But i assure u, im no cry baby.. Thats called passionate! =)

I remember the 1st time i cried my whole heart out.. thats when my first lil puppy died.. >.<'' But then, i got used to it. My dog(s) always seems to die in a horrible way.. crushed by cars, poisoned, stolen, virus infections =.=''.. Eventually i stop crying when my dog dies, my heart already too numb to cry. XD..

Btw.. Nip/Tuck is a awesome new series! Must watch !

Liverpool!

Evenly matched, action packed, and controversial =)
Its good to see both side play quality football today. Chelsea multi billionaire army vs Liverpool Rafalutioniez Reds..

To my surprise Gerrard and Alonso were not in the starting line-up, and i tought its going to be a one sided game. But.. Riise run and left leg strike is just magnificent. muahaha.. Cudicini should have save it.. dunno y he missed it, n u sould look at Terry's reaction.. His eyes poped out.. hahaha..

This is the first time i see Crouch use his height advantage to score. It was a well-timed n fantastic goal. All credit to Bellamy who supply such pinpoint accurate cross. Hehe =).. Undenieable, Shevchenko's goal is nice as well. He timed his run perfectly and finished it off with style. Man.. Liverpool sure need a striker like him.. Torres! Benitez buy him la.. dun wan let him go MU.. XD..

As usual, Mourinho being the usual whiner, gave all those lame excuse to explain the lost to Liverpool. Deng him la.. Why cant he just accept it like man and move on? Such a sore loser =.=''.. haha.. Just like what WeiPing said, this win is good to "shut that stupid bald monkey in blue up". Wahahaha.. True true =)..

Really looking forward to the new seaon liao. Chelsea is getting stronger than b4, but Liverpool sure prove that we can beat them.. wahaha.. Got hope to end Liverpool Premier League title drought liao.. =)

Yea.. Thanks to Riise and Crouch nice goal, I got 4 free gai fan liao.. Haha.. Thanks ChernHan.. haha =).. We should bet again.. heh..

All credit to the scorer, Riise and Crouch for bringing the 1st silverware of the season to Anfield. :D

Kaki lembutnya..

Wahaha.. Its been so long since the last time i went jogging. Jogged 30 min then cant go on liao.. Stamina so cha liao :(

But its a huge achievement for me tho. Din really work out for a looong time ( futsal dont count coz i barely move XD). My leg so pain now, mustle ache.. lol.. But, theres a slight ache up in my chest when i was running.. Maybe its becoz of the haze or sumthing..

Hmm hmm.. Tmr i try to jog longer. Hopefully i get rid of my tummy in no time. wahaha.. I'm proud of my tummy, just that 3 layers of tyre is too much la.. lol..

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Sometimes the creativity of China's counterfeit amazed me.. lol
Watch out when ur buying one.. XD

Bring it on!

Weekends are boring after the world cup. Being a football addict myself, weekend without football is hell.

But, suffer no more! Cause there's a huge match between Liverpool and Chelsea!! wahahaha.. Can see Liverpool whipped Jose Mourinho's ass again! Its a must see match! Tho the Community Shield is a small cup, but such curtain raiser is not to be missed. Moreover, Chelsea labeled Liverpool as their main title contender. Looks like Mourinho is afraid of Benitez liao. Coz Benitez out smart Mourinho tactics everytime. Hahaha..

I still cant get over the fact that Terry is the new skipper.. deng.. why not Gerrard?? We'll see who's the better this week.. Skipper vs vice skipper. wahaha

Benitez already can't wait to smack Jose ass liao.. wahahaha

There's also some interesting match up too..

Gerrard vs Ballack
How can Ballack fight with Gerrard leh?? Impossible.. Did Ballack ever save Bayern Munich from losing at the dieing minute? No.. Chelsea spent their money on a old man.. lol..

"Gerrard has led Liverpool superbly in recent seasons, dragging them back into the Champions League final in 2005 when they were 3-0 down at half-time against Milan. Also rescuing his side in the FA Cup final against West Ham with a late strike, the skipper is invaluable to the club and will look to hurt the side he almost joined last season with his penetrating runs and vicious shots."
-quoted from Soccernet.

See? Gerrard will own Ballack. Lampard is not a threat, look at his performance in the world cup..

Carragher vs Shevchenko
This might be a tough task for Carragher.. but they met before in the Champion League finals. He knows how to handle him. I have faith in him.. Just tat i scare he score another own goal. lol..

One thing for sure.. This sunday aint gonna be a boring sunday =)
I'm blind and blur.. but i'm not stupid..

shit..

Shit.. I got 2 test coming up and i got no intention to study at all!
=.=''

Sienz.. Lots of thing happened lately..
I'm making too many troubles for myself.. lol
Thinking too much and doing to many unnecessary stuff..
like playing stupid online flash game and not doing my homework(as if i'll do).. XD n care too much

Guess i have to learn to let go, be the normal shun-qi-zi-ran-matthew and turn that frown on my face up side down =)..

Stumble upon this on the internet..
I swear i've seen this on someone's blog.. lol
Hope they dont mind XD..

It says it all.. bleh.. No more emo-Matt liao!

Good temper?

A friend of mine told me that i don't have a temper.
Even if someone stab me at the back or poison my food, i'm still unaware of it.
Hmm.. thats good or bad?

Dang.. Maybe i'm the mr. nice guy who always takes what people say and wont snort.
You people nvr see me shout back at people..
Its not because i'm a chicken or what..
I'm just too afraid that i might hurt someone feeling..

But heck, you don't wanna see me lose my temper.
I can be a bloody scary person when i lost my head..
When rage consumed me, i'm not the person you wanna mess with..
I broke a air-cond bus window with my bare hands..
I almost kill my dog with a stick because it bit me..

Kind people often get bullied..
Deng.. I need to show my temper liao la..
If not ppl think I'm easy to take for granted..
Someday, when i lose my temper, i think i'll kill someone.. lol

When the heart dies,
Everythings dead..

Dead

"Ignorance is bliss"
I concur.. I learn it the hard way..
Some times certain things are better left unknown..

I smashed my fist on the wall..
I slit my wrist and let the blood spills..
I dismember my limbs..
I feel no pain..
Cause nothing hurts more than a shattered heart..
关心只会换来别人的厌烦...
This is the first and the last time..
You got no idea how i felt..
The feeling is overwhelming.. that excruciating pain deep inside..
I feel no pain when i smashed my fist onto the wall..
Physical pain is nothing compare to a severed soul..

All i need is a bit of land..
Apparently.. it sank to the bottom of the ocean..
Behind blue eyes

Timid

I always knew i'm not good at words.
I'm fortunate to find someone who wrote something that speaks out for me.
Read this. It says it all. Well said and heartfelt.

"Ignorance is bliss, cherish it"?
Well.. maybe its bliss.. maybe not..
Some times you just cant ignore certain things..
Sometimes...
Being ignored by others hurts more than dieing..
For a person to give his heart only to have it shoved back in his face, that hurts more than anything..

Lately, I realise that i bears and uncanny resemblance to the Lion of Oz.
If you dont know whats that, its a story bout a lion who lost his courage.
In short, he's a coward. And i'm not very different from him.
In his journey, he finally regained his courage; as for me, I'm still seaching for the Badge of Courage..
I always admire those who dare to express themself, whether in real life or cyberspace.
For me, that takes lots of guts. I lost the courage to be ME..
Afraid of being betrayed, being hurt.. again..
maybe thats why i keep all my problems to myself..
All that english personal growth thing made me pondered..
Did i achieve personal growth?
Risks have to be taken, sacrifices have to be made.. I'm too chicken to take any risk..
Its always easier said than done..

Bleh.. Why i always think of these stuff when i can't sleep >.>''
I need a remedy to cure my sleeplessness.. lol..

Sleepless

Darn, i can't sleep :(
I lead a life of an owl.
Sleep in the afternoon and wake up at midnight.. lol
My biological clock is soo screw up.. -_-''
Dang..
Wish i had the courage to follow my heart..