Why a girl cries..

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When a girl cries, it doesn't mean she's week..
If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore..

If you take her hands, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl won't cry easily, except in front of the person she love the most,
she becomes week.
A girl won't cry easily, only when she loves you the most,
she puts down her ego.

Guys,
If a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
cause she's the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,
If a girl cries because of you,
please don't give her up.
Maybe because of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cries in front of you,
When she cries because of you,

Look into her eyes,

Can you see the see and feel the pain & hurt she's feeling?

Think,
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you, AND because of you?

She cries not because she's week,
She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity...

She cries,
because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt & agony has become to big a burden to be kept inside..

Guys,
Think about it..

If a girl cries her heart out to to,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back what you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Cause one day,
It maybe too late for regrets..
It maybe too late to say " I'm sorry"...
You may regret it for the rest of your life.

Maybe in your life,
She's the only one who love you the most.

Remember this lesson before its too late...

written by B3vz,

my online game buddy

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Found this cool poem n decided to share it with ya all..
Maybe its time for us, the guys, to think what we've done..
Before everything is lost.. XD

Personally, i think girls nowadays hardly cry in front of guys >.<
They're even tougher, mentally, then us guys.. lol..
If a girl do cry infront of me, I think i'll be stunned n confused.. dunno what to say to comfort her coz i scare i'll make the matter worse >.<
I need to read more bout girls.. understand more, psychologically..
As i always said.. girls are complicated organism.. lol
Mayb i should tell her.. tell her how i feel.. Before everthing fades away..

Genious.. What a nice piece of "rug".. =.=''

We've been waiting for it for weeks.. full of anticipation.. Finally, it arrived.. We're stunned when we saw it.. speechless n dumfounded..

Taa daa.. heres our state of the art ....

What the heck?! What is this rug?

This... is our MUFY shirt.. Ain't it ugly =.='' (tho it looks like a baseball shirt).. I was like.. OMG..wth with the colour.. GREY?! Oh man.. this sux.. Which genious design this shirt.. I wanna give him a headbutt.. He deserve a good bash.. What in the world.. Why did he chose grey?? I mean.. the colour combination is soo... weird... n this faggot won 100 bucks with this design >.>

Man.. He ruined our one n only MUFY shirt =.='' n it cost us 18 bucks.. 18 bucks for this kind of frigging shirt.. We gonna wear it throughout the whole course.. bout 10 months.. once every week.. Thats bout RM0.45 each time we wear it.. wth.. Thats expensive for this kind of crudely designed shirt =.='' Even i, ppl without any artistic talent, can come up with a better colour than this.. swt..

Other course have cool T-shirt.. And us... Haiz... speechless.. I prefer the past year MUFY shirt.. looks waaay better..

I can't imagine myself wearing this to school.. Its like wearing a factory workers uniform to college.. lol.. A whole bunch of student dress up like a factory janitor..
What a sight.. All grey.. n gay.. lol

Well.. Gotta give some credit to the "genious" who design this shirt..
Screw him =.=''
I just want.. to say.. i love you..

The Aftermath

Its been a few days after that dreadful event. And i'm still haven't fully recovered from it. I know i know.. My result ain't that bad, but when i compare to others, it ain't that good either.. Theres always this feeling of envy, or should i say, jealousy inside of me.. Then i'll start ranting again, if only i had their result..blah blah blah..

Heck, why am i comparing my result with others in the 1st place =.=''. I won't feel this away if i don't bother bout ppls result. Guess this is the so called "kiasu" spirit.. I should be contented with my result.. Tho,thats impossible. Humans are greedy beings. Its our nature..

But i still don't get it.. WTH in the world our class EST is so screwed up.. =.=''
I'm 1000% sure the examiner is blind. They just don't care as long as they're paid.. Its impossible only several of us got A n the rest got B.. SCREWED them.. !@#$%
Maybe its just sheer luck. Maybe we got an idiot to mark our paper.. I dunno.. Wateva la.. I'm definitely going to appeal!

Anyhow, my parents are quite happy with my results.. Mainly becaue that i got better result than one of my nephew >.>.. Oh yea.. MY sis promise to get a mp3 for me, as a belated birthday present and SPM reward.. 2 in 1.. And she use credit card point to change summore.. lol..

Here's how it looks like

Pretty much looks like a iPod (without the LCD screen) huh? lol.. Dont be fool by its cover. It actually has 0 memory in side.. yea.. 0 mb.. i have to buy my own SD card to store song =.=''.. Basic mp3 function..play, pause n forward >.>.. so called "Coolkit D2'' mp3 player.. Wateva lar.. At least now i got a simple n working mp3 player lo.. But i doubt it will last long, not with my sweaty palm.. lol.. Now i oni realise... iPod is soo damn cool... I want a iPod.. darn..

Okok la... At least i got sumthing.. better than nothing.. lol.. Next Xmas present --> mini iPod.. haha
Glad to see ur happy n smilling now

Pasar malam night..

Yea.. i know.. pasar malam only mar..wats so special.. to be honest.. I've nvr been to a pasar malam for years.. The last time i went there was... err... since primary school? lol XD.. haha.. Guess my night life was not tat pleasant after all.. lol

hmm.. Why go pasar malam? well.. felt kinda boring n just had this sudden idea to go to pasar malam lo.. Plus, just had my exam..need a break coz i screwed my english paper.. haiz.. So i ask hong ,keat n kah ee to go..since the pasar malam is near ke's house.. Dat ke la.. she wait for us outside her house.. swt.. we told her we'll call her de ma.. she sot sot liao.. lol

I'm like a kampung boy when we're there.. Theres so many ppl.. so much food to eat.. so many DVDs.. lol.. To my surprise.. almost all the ppl there is chinese.. got quite lot of ll oso lo..haha... Feel like eating all those 小吃 la.. looks n smell good.. Its just like the 夜市in Taiwan.. the atmosphere was great.. just tat taiwan was way lot crowded n fun n more ll.. lolx.. I miss those day.. haiz..

We just loiter around.. stopping to buy some food lo.. Deng the DVD seller ler... i ask him how much per DVD.. n he say :"Leng zai..want ham dai mar?" =.='' He say so loud made me pai seh only.. Mayb becoz i'm standing infront of those hd gua.. deng.. He speak in cantonese i dunno wat he's talking about.. so i just nod my head lo.. swt.. later ke tell me i only realise wat tat fella said..

Then tk come to join us late.. he said he came from grandma house wor... well..excuse only la.. haha.. We stop by a shop n makan lo.. Ke say got stall have very nice char kuey tiao wor.. so we went there n eat lo.. I think its around a restaurant call Steven Corner or sumthing... dunno lol XD.. the 奶茶 is not bad.. Next time buy again.. haha..

Mayb next thursday we'll go again lo.. since its holiday and i have nothing much to do.. haha..
Till then.. Adieu..
She's beautiful..

Numb3rs

Lol.. After the weekend i kinda threw everything back to the teacher.. When we're doing revision today, i kinda blank out for a sec.. wth.. Never tought that i'll become like this.. Haiz.. been slacking too much liao.. thats the price of playing too much games..

Dang ! Specialist maths freak me out.. All those complex numb3rs is making my head go nuts.. lol.. Can blame others tho.. Been very lazy lately la.. Lazy to move..Lazy to think..n worse.. lazy to do hw.. Suddenly got no motivation to do any hw.. especially spec maths.. so now i damn worry tat i'll fail my next test. lol..

I admire how those mathematician who conjure up all those complicated formula.. I mean.. Heck? who would bother to think bout all this numb3rs.. especially complex number a.k.a "imaginary" number.. lol

Worse to worse..my English test is schedule at this thursday.. Die... I got terrible marks for my expository essay.. that sux a lot.. fortunately, this coming test is bout personal writting.. sap sap sui ler =D.. as long as i stick to the topic lo..

Mufy is starting to heat up now.. After the break next week, i'm gonna be very stress.. Every week there's exam and test.. lol.. Been laughing at ppl for too long, now its time for me to suffer liao.. XD
Suffered another blow to the heart..

Finally 18 !

Lol.. Been waiting for so long for this moment.. No more restriction for watching 18pl movie (esp 18sx)! lolx..

Kindda sad.. coz there's no 29th of Feb this year! dang.. Apparently lots of ppl don't know when is my birthday.. neither do i...dont ask me.. >.<'.. There's no 29 this year.. Felt quite moody at 1st.. Coz been waiting for whole morning but not even a wish from anyone.. Thats on 28th Feb of coz.. Eventually those wishes came in.. flooding my msgbox =) I was delighted n touched.. Even got a sms from MunYee, all the way from Aussie =) .. Of coz i got wish her la.. wont forget her de.. we same birthday mar.. Tho its not as fun as previous year tho.. We're all scattered n seperated liao.. Oh well.. used to it liao.. Since i nvr really celebrate it XD.. The good thing is.. no "kai bao".. ha! My sis promised to buy me a mp3.. Hell yeah... finally.. been waiting for so long for this thing.. As for my birthday wish... Hope every1 get very good result for SPM lo... new friends.. everybody healthy, safe n sound.. lots more la.. n... ermm.. must find a gf this year! Muahaha... Desperate liao.. lolx So.. i would like to say.. THANK YOU! Ya all rocks! N u guys owe me a present.. Muahahaha.. jkjk.. Present is not important.. A simple sms is all i need.. plus, its not "officially" my birthday .. now i'm 4.5 years old.. haha.. Have to wait for 2 years more.. I'll definitely throw a party..heh.. i promise..
But still... something's missing.. i felt so hollow..deep in my heart..